October has come and gone. My grandson Dean is two years old now. My son and his wife celebrated their third wedding anniversary. I continue to pray asking for the lord god almighty's intercession. I ask for health, strength, and protection and I give love and gratitude for all the blessing I have received, seen, unseen, unknown and unknown.
On the book front, I keep getting congratulations on publishing the book. As a young man I was more of the artist, doodler, drawing on paper type. Because of this, many friends were very surprised to learn that I had written a book. To be quite honest, when I look at the earliest versions of the book, I am also surprised that I was able to put out a book I am proud of. I have since learned that a lot of fellow authors have felt the same way.
Even the greatest was once a beginner. Don't be afraid to take the first step. ~ Muhammad Ali
I continued to immerse myself in projects, kept myself busy developing my website, and updating my social media. Unfortunately, my actual job was draining my creative energy so when I got home, I didn't have enough energy to sit and write. I couldn't focus. I tried something I haven't done in a long while. I drew! I drew a map of the world where Aeternus Pond resides. I have always been able to get easily caught up in the details and soon hours have gone by. The thing about me is that even though I have spent hours immersed in the creative process, I do not get mentally tired. When I am done, I feel great but then I need to find another project.
That's when it became evident to me that I am unable to sit still or be still. When I do that I think and when I think I can get very down on myself. In the past, I spent hours editing video I took of my oldest son's band performances and posting them to YouTube. I would spend hours creating websites as well as downloading and listening to music or binge watching shows. I do all of this just so I don't think about my current situation. In order to feel better about myself, I would spend lots of time with my grandson. Reading books to him, drawing pictures so he could color them in, and playing dinosaurs with him. Watching him grow and get smarter, listening to his growing vocabulary and seeing him enjoying new experiences has allowed me to slow down and be present in his life; in my own life.
Remember, being happy doesn't mean you have it all. It simply means you're thankful for all you have. ~ Unknown
Now I am able to dedicate time to writing, working on my website, listening to music and watching shows without feeling like I was do it to avoid negative thoughts. Instead, I am enjoying the experience and if a negative thought surfaces, I remind myself that God is good and my family loves me. I remind myself that this too shall pass. I give thanks, love and gratitude for all that I have. I remind myself that each day is a new opportunity, a new beginning and I can go on.
I continue to pray asking for the lord god almighty's intercession. I ask for health, strength, and protection and I give love and gratitude for all the blessing I have received, seen, unseen, unknown and unknown.
Onward to November.